As Sick As My Secrets, Loving Kindness and Homecoming (1/2)

content warning: sex work, rape, weapons I wake to the soft sound of horns; the London Philharmonic plays the theme from Chariots of Fire from my phone.  It's 5:30 Saturday morning.  I'm tired, I'm alone, and I'm sad.  I lay still for a moment, a hand to my heart and a hand to my belly--trying … Continue reading As Sick As My Secrets, Loving Kindness and Homecoming (1/2)

Women Get Raped, Men Get Presumed Innocent

content warning: abuse, assault, rape Between Cosby and Kavanaugh, it's been a shit week for women.  I've attempted to personally minimize the effect on me--after all, I've been feeling better lately.  I don't want to go back.  I don't like feeling all the ugly feelings that fester, unresolved and unwanted, somewhere in my subconscious.  I've … Continue reading Women Get Raped, Men Get Presumed Innocent

Sexual Abuse/Assault/Violence; Does The Label Matter?

content warning: domestic violence, sexual assault I wake in my friend Erin's beautiful Lakewood house before morning's first light.  Her dog doesn't even stir from his spot next to me in bed.  I brush my hair and teeth, put some clothes on and meditate, and we walk around the neighborhood with the first flickering of … Continue reading Sexual Abuse/Assault/Violence; Does The Label Matter?